Talk:Lapis Lazuli/@comment-31670972-20180509195845

Lapis Rant for Can't Go Back-

When we first see Lapis, she is humming to herself, which shows out that she's lonely. When she sees Steven, she's not that surprised because she probably saw Steven coming. After, she doesn't want to be judged because she'd get emotional, and if you didn't know, she's been holding her emotions back. Next, we see that she is watching the Crystal Gems. .She says she wouldn't call it spying because it would make her feel bad, another example of her holding in her emotions. She says that she can't stand being apart from Peri and Steven, and feels lonely, so she would be having separation anxiety. She wants to come back, but she can't because she feels bad for the way she left, she starts getting upset when mentioning what Peridot would say. She starts worrying about the diamonds and if something bad happens, so she starts having an anxiety attack. When Steven says what if something good happens, she sings That Distant Shore. The song represents how she liked the earth with Peridot and Steven, but starts to worry about the diamonds and if something bad happens. After the song, she says she might have overreacted. She confesses she done some much due to fear. She clearly feels guilty, and says she was sure the diamonds would destroy her home. She says she feels trapped, but she put herself their. She talks about how she may rather be with someone in danger rather than alone and safe, and she thinks about going back, but is sure things would never go back to normal. Steven convinces her to come back, though she is still afraid of how Peridot feels and the danger of the diamonds. After Steven's dream, he wakes up and screams, which starts giving Lapis anxiety. When he says he saw the diamonds, the anxiety sets in. She gets worried and starts the what ifs? She than really starts to freak out, and is very scared. She finally looses it in her frustration and anxiety and runs to the door. She says she going as far as earth as she can, she says she is leaving and says that Steven should be used to it by now. She says she doesn't know what she was thinking, and that she's not like Steven's friends. She says she can't go through being trapped again, and after being asked if she would rather be alone, she says sorry and flies off. So Steven gave her an anxiety attack, witch scared her very badly, prompting her to fly away, to be alone. She'll come back soon, due to separation anxiety. She needs to let out her emotions, which we can tell she's been holding back for a while now. She needs someone who's also gone through pain, can understand her, so our only hope would be Jasper, but, of course, it would be hard for Lapis to forgive Jasper and herself for what she did to Jasper. But with Jasper coming back and learning Rose is pink, this episode could come fairly soon, seeing we don't have many episodes left and that she'll return due to the anxiety she has.