Thread:Pymien/@comment-25998503-20150702073128

Hello everyone,

As most of you know, I was demoted recently, I lost my posistion as Admin, and was moved to Patroller, up for debate was it deserved, I say no, however my fellow staff members, Andrey, Lil, Luigi, etc. have all decieded it was for the best, and who am I to stand in the way of their descision for what is the best for the wiki. Regardless, I have been demoted and that's what i'm trying to say.

I joined this wiki in January, almost half a year ago, this wiki has really taught me great things, and has meant so much to me. I've spent so long, each day and night, probably accumulated over hundreds maybe thousands hours on this wiki. I've gotten to personally know each and everyone one of you and it's been an honor to work alongside this community.

Steven Universe is an amazing, talented show, that has so much potential, and greatness in it, and I'm so happy it's gotten so much positive attention, this show has been a life changer for me, the show is about love and happiness, and has unlocked so many great things in my life. It's a truely remarkable show, and i'm in love with it.

When I joined this Wiki, My goal was to make a difference. When I joined the wiki I saw users working, I didn't even know what a template was, or how to edit a page, at first it was rough, I remember my first edit ever was reverted, as I didn't know what I was talking about. Those were the days.. But then I got good at what I did, and eventually became good at wiki.

I worked my way up the posistions, starting out as a Chat Moderator, moving up to Moderator of the forums, then Patroller of the wiki, and finally the most honorable thing I could've ever wanted, Admin. I always wanted to be an admin, and once I got it, I was so happy.. I got to spend my time with beautiful and amazing users.

This wiki is a great place, and it's growing, and sadly enough to say, it's going to be without me. I am leaving, not for my demotion, and I want to make that clear.. I am not leaving for the sole reason alone of being demoted, but the signifigance of it, and why it sets me over the line.

I've been accused about lying about things very personal to me, things that make me upset that people question.. If you know me, you know what i'm talking about. People think I lie and manipulate them, and so they vote me off. They act like they are not out to get me, but Staff Members have sent me conversations of LilDuders, Vogels, etc. conversations about me.

I in no way have ever lied to my teammates, or fellow users. I have been honest with you about everything, who I am, who I know, who I like, and what I do. I have no intention to lie to anyone as, what would that accomplish? I'm saying this because this wiki is amazing, but at the same time has many things not so amazing about it.

When I originally was granted Patroller, I was accused of using the sympathy card, and targetted, users disliked me, and stalked my activity feed, reverting things I did, and making me look like a fool at any opportunity they could. They act like they are perfect, users and staff. I've talked with other users, and I think we all notice it.

This is a very stressful place, and you may think it's calm, but there is more than what meets the eye. Lots of bad things go on behind your back. I personally was voted out of staff behind my back, not even being adressed by the users who voted. It happened in an instant, I was given a headsup. They gave me no place to do anything, nothing to change, no discussion.

No voting threads, a private voting, which they let a user into, who also voted me off. Now if they'd confronted me about this, said "Listen Pymien, we've been discussing and we need you to change this x this, because we've been seeing x lately, and we don't appreciate that" etc. I would've understood, but this happened behind my back, and i'm betrayed by people I called friends.

Users have bullied and made a fool out of me, not naming names, but people are certainly rejoicing my demotion. I'm not trying to draw attention to myself or throw a sympathy card, as I don't want sympathy at this point. I know what people think of me and i'm not going to let things happen any longer.

A lot of good and bad comes out of working at a wiki, I've met great users, bad users, done great things, and bad things, lots of amazing beautiful contributions i've done, but also faulty and not-so-great contributions. Regardless, no human is perfect, so we need to not hold me to these standards.

I've been stressed a long time, so maybe my demotion was for the best, a stress reliever, but it wasn't for the best, and I haven't deserved anything of the sort.. Regardless what I do at this point, nothing can be the same, I can't be remembered as an X-Admin, but I also don't want to be the Coward Patroller who quit their job. No matter what I do, my reputation and friendships are broken.

I don't know if I can ever forgive, or even talk to the people whom I once called friends who've hurt and lost my trust for them, but I certainly don't want to loose the people that still do matter. I have made up my mind, and this wiki's experience and time with me is over.

I don't know what is next, but I know it'll all be OK. I'm sorry for leaving this way friends, but we will meet again one day hopefully, most importantly to all the people who I care most dearly about, i'll miss you the most, I may visit, but I can't take the enviroment here anymore, for reasons stated above.

With much love, Pymien.  